I had him since he was a pup, He died last year around this time. He was 9 and died of kidney failure. He had to be put down and it was a horrible experience for me. I nearly hyperventilated while the vet was preparing, though I did manage to calm down enough to comfort my dog at the end. We were very strongly bonded and I miss him like part of myself. I miss him especially when I am lonely or going through difficult times, because I remember he was always there beside me. How long am I going to feel this grief and is there anything I can do to ease it?
I can’t get another dog, nor do I want one. My living situation won’t allow it, and I don’t think I can ever give the amount of love and commitment I gave to my dog to another animal knowing it will die.